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Wednesday, October 31, 2007

.: Inhabitant :.

Been living together more than a year
He move out today due to some reason
Every traces of him is around mi
The things he destroyed
His fur lying everywhere still
Shadow of his around mi
Miss his mischievous
his cuteness
Love him throwing tantrum
play around wt mi
no more barking
nor wolfing
feel so lonely in this empty room
what i suppose to do
although still can visit him
but still wish he could irritate mi every sec
the feel is different
Gosh!!!Chivas!!!
Ur existent is driving mi crazy
But when u not around
IS KILLING MI!!!

__- LOVEdeprived -__
|1:12 AM|

Thursday, October 25, 2007

.: back to studio........ :.

Shake of procastination n back to studio for 2 tatoo appt.....

Shawn told mi business is not doing good n he resort to doing partime chef over the weekend,lol... now every trade is hard,especially on commission base,really gotta strive for it,if not......... lol....

Gate 13 has newly take in 3 apprentices,young boys n gal,seems energetic n potential,lol....Cool!
Gate 13 jiayou jiayou,although im freelancing now but im always wt u guys,keexkeex!

Back to studio bring back lots of memory for mi,n brought mi to tink tat whether shld i go back as a full-timer again,is a kind of passion n love in it tat i cant explain....Hmmmm......
But under some circumstances seems doesnt allow mi to,hiaz....shall see how ba......

"Cindy jiayou jiayou!!!! ANTI-PROCASTINATION!!!!"

__- LOVEdeprived -__
|1:58 AM|

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

.: Life...... :.

Suppose to go slacking my this coming weekend in Genting wt Garrey-san n Jaron-shaoye,but was postpone to next wk due to coming Halloween events n Ben jie going next wk too,so we join her n go together.Hopefully Mr & Mrs ScareCrow can join us next wk,long time no gathering le.

Suddenly miss my Ah Xin-Jennifer so much,u abondon mi since u starts wk,make mi an abondoned little kitten,Missed our super,hang out late nite,bitching pple,lol......n most important,a graceful pair of listening ears of mine....almost time for a decade celebration to our friendship loh!

Had come to an unbelivable dicision for everyone,im moving back my very own home soon,the real home sweet home i called.which i move out since i was 14,lol...
This is wat my mum n dad always hoping for,hoping for the ignorant n rebelious gal to return home.....moving home hoping changes of environment wil do mi good,taking one step at a time,Jiayou Jiayou!

For this past few days,im keep thinking wat are really friends means?For the past,had been betrayed by so called best friends ultimate times but seems i haven learnt my lesson,so called best friend who had betrayed been in a severe way come back to mi recently,i stil open my warm arms welcome her holding no grudges against her,Im totally forgiving her although i did not forget what she did to mi,n once awhile when my mind flashes her,theres a kind of fear in mi,but i cant describe it.....maybe jux like the story of the sheepherd n the wolves,u noe wat i mean? Gal,i really glad to see ya again,but im fearful of u,fearful of betrayer.Maybe we could nv be the same like the past anymore,the bond is merely there.....

Life goes on no matter wat,different pple walk in n out my life at different sectors,all i hoping for now is erase the ugly scene of my life n capture the beautiful moment rite now......

When u wanna gain something,gotta learn to let go something too,nv ask for the best of both world,Greed doesnt come wt a beautiful ending.............

__- LOVEdeprived -__
|8:17 PM|

.: Turning point? :.

Life hasnt been smooth for mi for the pass half year,so much problems occur n seems cant find ways to work things out.Been stucks in difficulties every now n then.Seems like i had been keep repeating the mistakes of making wrong choices that changes mi lots.
But there is always a turning point am i rite,now really wanna try hard to get back to the tracks that i suppose to lead,hope things turn out smoother for mi.

My dad once asked mi,how do u define worst time of ur life?My mind keep trying hard to look for wats my worst incident,but seems cant compare which is worse or worst.
Till he told mi,jux like a pot of hot water,what is the hottest point? 100 degree ? nope,it can go higher or lower,so how u define it? the hottest point of it is when the water starts to turn cold,at the sharp point of time,is the hottest,same theory applies to life,when u had meet ur worst period,isnt time for turning point?
Like wat he had say to mi,i really hope things work out this way.

Life really kinda sux n torture,wats the true meaning in life?
sux sux sux!!!!!!!!
ArRRrrgggggHHhhhhhh
Gotta stop writing le,b4 i smash my laptop!

__- LOVEdeprived -__
|12:46 AM|

Monday, October 08, 2007

.: Batam Trips 6/7-10-2007 :.